God Loved Me in a Roy Roger's Parking Lot

Thrice atop tomorrow.
Twice just yesterday.

We are peach pit raw
with wanting,
and sculpted from clay.

Charmed pink and tapping,
nervous feet dancing,
trust falling
around God's maypole. 

A table for two becomes a battleground,
wet and winded where my caved throat houses Thy name.

God loves me
I know
because he told me

to get on my knees and beg,
pray for forgiveness
then hang my head
off the rusting truck bed.

All the words God didn't say paint the clearest picture.
Oh, how religion propels one to stay.

I suck a plumb
               from the Garden of Eden
off God's thumb

& thank him for the treat.

I am all the things God once loved
written in honey mustard
on a Roy Roger's receipt.

ESCAPRIL DAY ONE LETSSSS GOOOOOOO

I managed to stay creative long enough to get a poem out of me!

ICYMI, this month I’ll be participating in #escapril where I attempt to write poetry everyday based on prompts I forged from the internet. A nuxlocke for poetry, if you will.

At the end of the month, we’re going to see how many prompts I used, which poem used the most prompts, AND we’ll calculate which poets I’m most obsessed with based on how many of their prompts I used. If you’ve got #prompts, I wanna see them!!

Today’s poem was generously inspired by:

• Lois Rose //

  L. R. Sterling
  
  we are peach pit raw with wanting // charmed pink and tapping nervous feet

• Amy Elizabeth Vaughn // amyelizabethvaughn
  pick me a plum from the garden of eden

• Max // braving.the.static
  sculpted from clay

• my.tears.ricochet21
  trust fall

• Saayansh Ahuja // thatdramaticpoet
  table for one

• Cora //

  Cora
  
  wet and winded

• Alexis Mitchell // _lexmwrites
  the cave of my throat houses your name // what propels you to stay? // all the words you didn’t say painted the clearest picture

If you liked this poem, stick around to see how Escapril treats me!

Now, let’s get to tracking.

• Number of prompts used: 10

• Poem with the most prompts: God Loved Me in a Roy Roger's Parking Lot
  Day one poem taking the lead, prophetic.

• Most wrote After Poet: Alexis Mitchell // _lexmwrites

That’s all for the poetry today! Until tomorrow my friends (❀ˆᴗˆ),(•́ᴗ•̀✿),(づ˶•༝•˶)づ♡

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The Secrets My Skirts Keep is a love addiction poetry collection that takes the unturned stones left in one girl's past and flips them, exposing the filthy underbelly of sexual abuse, addiction, passion, and rage. We've all kept secrets that are too dirty to speak. We've all been strangers to ourselves. We stumble through life making the best decisions we can, and sometimes, even good people make bad choices. This collection of poetry and prose is a walk through time, personal space, and obligation; a exposition of the messiness of love.

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I am a love addict.

Twelve-year-old me would read that and think “what a slut.” How can I blame her? She came from the you look prettier when you smile generation and grew up digging her nails into her dimples to hold her cheeks up.

That’s what happens when boys are boys.

For a long time, I refused to believe anything was wrong with me. How can there be anything wrong with love? Like fate, love comes with a line. You can twist and bend that line like a body. You can even convince the body that abusing it is love. It’s not long until the lines between love, abuse, fate, and the body become so blurred, there’s no way to tell them apart. After enough time, you can’t help but wonder:

at what point does one stop chasing love?

at what point do we stop needing it?

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